As I Yo-Yo again… (Operation Motivation)

I’m back… again. I haven’t taken a full 5 months off, but I feel like I might have well have. My scale practically groans when I start to approach. Ok, that isn’t true, but I imagine it in my head in the morning. I’m back for inspiration and motivation. Oh, I need motivation. And, a therapist. Since I’m unwilling to find the last one right now, I’ll stick to helping my body to become healthier and hope my mind follows.

Since back to school shopping was done, I am fully stocked up on notebooks. I have no reason not to be journaling like a madwoman. I have also found a bike riding buddy. I purchased a bike several years ago. I even rode it a couple of times. I have gone for more bike rides in the past two weeks than I have the rest of the years I have owned the thing. I even rode around the block a couple of times today with my daughter. My only complaint is that my butt hurts after. I bought a cushioned seat cover, which helps a little, but my muscles on my bottom need to get used to holding me up on a tiny seat. I will get there before snow falls this Winter.

I am currently not working (I am a seasonal employee), so my days consist of cleaning, school work (Masters Degree), and exercise. Well, that is what it should consist of. Too often, my day is filled with Netflix, couch naps, and wishing I had done something with my day. I miss my weekly goals. I felt like I was getting something done.

I have a handful of sources of motivation right now, some healthy, some not so healthy.

1) My darling daughter. She is always a shining spot of love, motivation, dedication and all that is good. I want her to live in a happy healthy environment. I will be a positive role model in her life.

2) Diet Bet. I joined another Diet Bet and I read our activity board regularly (every time I feel like drowning out reality with donuts). Seeing other women working together, sharing ideas, acknowledging accomplishments, supporting each other in struggles gets my mind back to where I want it to be.

3) I compare myself to others. Here’s my unhealthy one that keeps me writing in my journal because I am driving myself insane. I was in Abu Dhabi for the Summer visiting my boyfriend. He is surrounded by gorgeous women that are scantly clad and just passing through. I’m not going into this further because it’ll set me off on a self loathing tangent and I’m looking for positive motivation right now and not one fueled by frantic desperation.

To wrap this up, here are my goals for the week.

  1. Meet my FitBit step goal each day this week.
  2. Try a new healthy recipe.
  3. Finish my homework by Thursday. (This will reduce so much stress in my weekend. No one deserves to have a stressed out weekend.)
  4. Time my mile on my walk/jog.
  5. Sign up for the NAMI RI 5k for this weekend.

I’m going to start with this and come up with my long term goals later. And I’m off! I’m planning on playing Just Dance before bed 🙂

And my weight this morning was 244 lbs…

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Battling Excuses… again.

The Jillian Michaels’ DietBet is now over. I have officially weighed out and won. I dropped my extra weight and then some and I am so very relieved. I can’t wait until the results are finalized and I find out how much I won. That pot has quite a bit of potential. I am currently in one more DietBet, 20 days to go. I was thinking about not signing up for anymore right now, but then I realized that I was just giving into excuses… I have dropped quite a bit of weight, and I would like to maintain that loss. Blah blah blah. What I really mean to say is that I’m tired and cranky, it is cold out, and I want to be a slug for a bit, but I can’t when money is on the line. Perhaps that is the point of DietBet. It keeps you in line when you have something to lose. My plan today is to go to CrossFit before picking my daughter up from her after school program. I should stick with that plan. My alternative plan is to go home, take a nap, then pick her up… Ok, option one is better for me. I’ll feel better after I workout as well. Perhaps I’ve gone too long between real sweat sessions. I’ve lost my boost that I get. I’ve completed 12 missions on Zombies, Run! 2, but my knee was tender after a serious squat session, so I’ve mostly been walking.

It is not even 40 degrees out yet today. I had frost on my windows this morning. I wish I had something toastier to walk in. There’s my reason to pick up the pace! I’ll be warmer. Hopefully my treadmill will be moving in with me in the next week. That’ll help on the chilly days (and the stressed out evenings when I can’t get out to burn off my angst).

I just looked up the WOD for my Foundations class, and I’m now excited!

Foundations:

5 rounds:

400m run

20 sit ups

10 KB swings @1.5/1Pd

I know that I’ll be last on the run… every… single… time, but I love kettle balls and I really want to work on my sit ups. It was on my list of goals after all. I just need to make it through work. Tick Tock! Get a move on Clock!

Weigh In – And Update

Ok, once again, I weighed in on Monday and didn’t get to post. My last weight in was my first Weigh Out on my very first DietBet, and I won! So for gambling $25 on myself, I got a payoff of $44. I already signed up for another one, and the best part this time is that I paid for it with my winnings. Now I’m officially getting paid to lose weight! I cannot wait to see what the payout is for the Jillian Michaels bet is. That pot is ten times bigger than the one that just ended. So, here are my numbers from Monday…

Starting Weight: 268.8 lbs

Last Week: 237.0 lbs

Current: 235.6 lbs

I am walking a whole lot more (running from Zombies), but I haven’t been back to CrossFit yet. My daughter and I are having scheduling difficulties. She has Karate and other good things going on. I have put our activity options on little colored pieces of paper and shuffled to see how we can fit all of our wants. I think I have a solution (at least for today’s options). I will pick her up and she will be surprised. From here on, we can be a bit more organized. Speaking of organized… my boyfriend finished our closet before he left again.
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Again he is gone for five weeks, but this time, I can hang my clothes up instead of storing them in and on bins. It was like Christmas. I have polished this wood so very much, it will be shimmering until next Summer. I might have a livingroom by next week. It is still holding piles and piles of clothing for now. I don’t think I’ve ever been so eager to clean.

Goals and Still Moving (part 3)

I really like that my monthly goal update, weekly weigh in, and 100th post all fall in one. Thank you to everyone that is reading about my journey. I really appreciate all of the support and comments that you have contributed. Let’s start with my weigh in…

Starting Weight: 268.8 lbs

Last Week:           241.8 lbs

Current:                237.6 lbs

Huge happy dance! Good bye 240’s! I weighed myself both days this weekend. I didn’t want it to just be a water fluctuation. I feel like this one is solid. This also means that I have met my goal for my first DietBet! I need to maintain or improve for another week or so until my weigh out. I get a cut of the $74k pot. The Jillian Michaels diet bet is still underway. That pot is over $233k. I’m so very excited about my results. Winning is a nice added bonus. And now we say good bye to my September goals…

September

  1. Complete C25K Week 1 (on hold ankle injury) (carried from August)
  2. Remodel my closet. (on hold, but well underway. Boyfriend is away and will complete upon his return)(carried from August)
  3. C25k Week 2 (see #1) (carried from August)
  4. Move all of my stuff into the new house (Still working on it. I have two more days)(Now I’ve been extended to the end of October)(carried from August)
  5. Improve Crunches to 40 and knee push ups to 20.
  6. Actual workouts – at least 2 a week all month. Week 1 Week 2 Week 3 Week 4
  7. Fix the railing on the porch and paint it.
  8. Leave the 240′s behind!

By June 2014

  1. Take a scuba class.
  2. Run an entire 5k.
  3. Reduce debt by 50%.
  4. Organize all stored items in basement.
  5. Have a yard sale.
  6. Onederland

I did ok. I’ll give me an ok. I really wanted to knock everything off this month. I’ll have to settle for October. I didn’t practice my push ups nearly as much as I wanted to. While I’ve been getting workouts in, I haven’t been pushing. It is something I need to do at home. I just feel silly in the gym. I’ll get over my self-consciousness eventually.

I think I’m done with the C25k program. I want to continue improving my running, but I kind of want to run more when I can and feel like I can walk when I need to. As long as my times keep improving, I’ll call it progress.

I am not too sure what this month will actually bring life or fitness-wise. I see a small vacation in the near future. I will also be starting a new job with new hours. But, I wouldn’t be me if I didn’t keep going with a to do list. Bring it on, October!

October

  1. Remodel my closet. (on hold, but well underway. Boyfriend is away and will complete upon his return)(carried from August)
  2. Move all of my stuff into the new house (Still working on it. I have two more days)(Now I’ve been extended to the end of October)(carried from August)
  3. Improve Crunches to 40 and knee push ups to 20. (Carried from September)
  4. Fix the railing on the porch and paint it. (Carried from September)
  5. Go jogging with my boyfriend.
  6. Take a new class at the gym (or possibly stop in at the Crossfit  gym I found near my house)
  7. Say good bye to the 230’s.

I don’t know if it is my mood today or what. I just can’t think of another goal to add to my list. I keep reading about CrossFit. It sounds like a lot of work, and something that I would like. This place has a free first time drop in. I don’t know if I’m in good enough shape to give it a whirl. Then again, I’m there to improve. Maybe it doesn’t matter where I am in my journey. I’ve removed 30 lbs so far. It isn’t like I’m brand new to exercising. I’ll think about it and try to stop stressing about everyone looking at me.

Traditionally, this is where I give up on my weight loss journey. I want to stay engaged and not bury myself back under a rock. I need to deal with my issues before they pop up again. Proactive. That will be my theme of the month. I’ll try and stay a step ahead of my… well… head.

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