While unpacking I uncovered a book I picked up years ago. I’ve always wanted to be happy, but I just didn’t know how to get there. I bought, Field Guide To Happiness. It is all about self discovery and finding happiness within yourself, because that is where it is naturally found.
I’m focusing on the mind mapping section. Mind mapping is a tool to work with your thoughts and feelings. I grabbed the first exercise. Write your favorite word in the middle of a page, then surround it with the first 10 words that come to mind. I’ve always loved the word eclectic. It was on my first journal cover. I didn’t know what it meant when I bought it, but now I know it is to be considered the best by many sources. Perfection is a fascinating thought, but what really defines it? I see my cluster and I feel sad about where it would go if I kept going. I still think of me as unlovable. My daughter loves me, but she has to, I made her 🙂
I need to get it out of my head that losing weight will make me a better person. I am not a number on a scale. I will still be me, no matter what size. I need to love me, accept me, forgive me… Becoming physically healthier is only a piece of the puzzle. They all have to fit together to make me work.