I must allow myself to succeed

Dishes are done. Two loads of laundry are complete. I’ve begun to dust. The problem with all of this? This is how I avoid working on my final. I sat down to work on my essays for my final, and then it hit me… I need to do everything else but my final. I’m even writing here. I just need to focus and get it over with. I do not know why finishing things are so… difficult for me. I shouldn’t say difficult, it is easy enough. I just don’t want to. I have another class lined up, so it isn’t like I’ll be in limbo. It is so very frustrating to deal with me.

Here’s the plan (because I need a plan). I will answer one problem before I do anything else. That is the deal that I am making with myself. I need to at least finish one more problem before I call it a night. If I don’t, then I’ll be freaking out tomorrow and I don’t really need any more stress.

I need to get out of my own way. This applies to so many aspects of my life. I do not like to struggle. I don’t know why I insist on doing it.

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2 thoughts on “I must allow myself to succeed

  1. When I was writing my comprehensive exam to transfer from Masters to PhD (a Canadian science thing) I had a notebook beside me when I was studying. I would think of something that needed to be done, write it down and close the book. I could then finish those things on my lunch break or after I got back from the library. It helped because it was out of my brain to be dealt with without forgetting about it, and I could focus on the task at hand.

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